12 - I'm Scared to Death

It's almost 1:00 in the morning and I'm still awake. I'm finishing all the requirements which is due this week. My eyes are really tired and I already want to sleep but I have to finish everything now because I want to cope up with my grade in Technical Writing. As of now I already exceeded to the number of tardiness for the subject and I am now one of the candidates to drop it but I don't want to drop.

I know that we are only allowed to have 2.5 absences which is two absence plus one late and two lates are equivalent to one absence already. I feel bad about it because even though I always come late to class at least I still pass all requirements needed and I my performance is fine compared to some of those who attend early in class. It feels bad because I might repeat the subject only because of my lates. Somehow, I think that checking attendance for college is not needed because we are already in college. Students know what's right and what's wrong, it's up to us how are we going to catch up to what we've missed. I think that being late must be forgivable because at least the student attends the class. Yes I just live in taguig which is near APC but it doesn't mean that trip is easy. Just imagine I have to walk for 20 minutes from our house to the terminal . Then the trip from the terminal is about 15 to 20 minutes depending on the jeep that you will ride because some jeeps has a lot of stop overs just to fill the jeep. And I have to fall in line to the terminal for 15 to 30 minutes. It depends if the traffic is heavy. Then If the traffic going to Pasay is heavy I have to wait for about 15 to 30 minutes again to arrive at Magallanes and lastly, just to arrive at school earlier I will ride a jeep than the shuttle because if I will take the shuttle I have to wait for 15 minutes so I'll just take the jeep and I will be at school in 3 or 5 minutes. Better if it's easy to wake up earlier in the when you only have two hours of sleep because you finished and fixed everything you need for your subjects and for the SOMA production.

How I wish that there's a bridge on SLEX(from c5 to Pasay) going to Asia Pacific College so if there's a sudden accident in Magallanes I won't be late anymore. It would be better if I don't need to travel from c5 to Magallanes and Magallanes to APC anymore, I'll just cross the bridge. It is also less on your expenses for transportation.

10 - Dreaming, High.

I had a bad dream last Saturday, February 23, 2013. It weird and strange. My dream was pertinent to drugs. I don't know why am I dreaming about that. It was the second time I dreamed about my brother addicted to drugs.

What happened  in my first dream was my brother and his friends were renting an apartment in our old house. They used that as their drug laboratory. There was a pipe inside the apartment that produces smoke of drugs. One day they become wild and the smoke coming out from the pipes were going strong. One of their neighbor went to their apartment to find out what was happening but he was caught. The neighbor was place in front of one of the pipe and his hair was slowly melting because of the chemical. His skin was rapidly peeling and then he went unconscious. Many soldiers were coming to their apartment and they panicked. My brother's friends runaway and he was left with the body of their neighbor then I came to help him. I opened the window and there was a floating ship waiting for us. We board the ship with the body of the neighbor covered with white bandage. He looked like a zombie but we did that because his body might unravel. While we our sailing in the air we were castaway in a paradise and the moment we landed fairies were coming for us and then I woke up already.

The second dream went like this. I was painting on the table and under the table was a pipe with a bulb like cover. While I was painting I moved my feet because I'm tired already then my feet bumped to the pipe and the cover was removed so I look at what's inside the pipe and I found out that it was full of shabu. Our eldest sister told me to return it immediately because our my brother will get angry. I returned it but it wouldn't fit until my brother was home and he saw me holding the cover. He was so mad and wild because of the effect of the drugs. We all of us started to runaway from him. we went to a hotel then back to our old house. we kept on running so he could not chase us. We climb all the way up to the roof but before we reached the roof my sister was caught already. My mom was tired already so we decided to hide inside a small room. We covered ourselves with a plywood so my brother would not notice us. But we were caught. He used again our house to be his drug laboratory and he invited again his friends. My mom didn't want to runaway because she was worried about my brother. We look so gory as well as the place. Everything was full of violence. Then one day I went insane so my mother decided to escape. He told my brother that we will go to the market to stole some food so my brother allowed us. While we were going through the road my mother sight a huge truck carrying armored men so we hide in an abandoned house til I woke up again.

I do not understand why am I having about those thing. It's creepy because it is about my family and it is involving drugs. I din't know where these dreams are coming from.

9 - Chloses

POEM

We talk so loud as we wait for our class.
We laugh out loud like no one cares.
"Mr. Sanjo" is near, let's pretend we're not here.
Now he is gone let's laugh at him.

We are so happy, we get along together.
I am hoping, we'll stay like this forever.
Talking about anything,
Laughing about everything.

As I look at our picture,
I can't help but figure.
I miss you guys so much
Though we keep in touch.

Remember the days when we're so stressed?
And "Ms. Aliño" said BAYROSES instead of viruses.
We laugh so hard and the stress flew away.
Especially when Steven was the only one accused.

I miss us already but I know that we'll see each other again.
Few days until March we'll laugh together again

8 - Chloses

I am from a public high school and my section from first year to forth year are I-Sampaguita, II-Chlorite, III-Selenium and IV-Soliman. I belong to on block since second year and we are 69 in a class that time. Whem we were third year, only 51 were left because other transferred in other school, some of them drop out because of financial problem and one of them got pregnant. Only 49 Students survived and make it to forth year. Two of them drop out because they got pregnant and the other one transferred to Cebu.

Despite the fact that ever year we were slowly decreasing, we still keep in touch with each other and treat each other as brothers and sisters. We respect each others imperfection and always understand one another. But we don't tolerate the bad deeds of some of us. The girls make sure the boys will not get into trouble and if they did, we would let them learn their lesson if they're wrong and support them if they are on the right side. While the boys protect the girl always. Like when our class dismissal was at night, they always make sure that girls are safe and we are accompanied. The boys are helpful too, when you ask for something like to change bag just ask them and they will do it. One time when we had an activity for English , we brought big costumes and props, and after that when we were about to go home they carried our paper bags full of costumes.

Until now we're still the same with one another. We make sure that we're keep in touch like on Facebook we have a group and when someone posted it will surely gong to be a chat box. We talked about every thing like a conversation will not end even if it's non-sense it will only stop if there's a new post. And sometimes our forth year adviser, "Nanay Weng"  as we call her joins the non-sense but happy conversation.
We became so united because we respect our differences and of course it will not going to happen without our teachers and mentors who guided us inside the school  and who become our parents up until now.

7 - Let's Play!

I miss being a kid. When the only thing  that stresses me is when I am the loser of the game, I have to sleep first before I can play outside. I have so many playmates before and I used to play after lunch until the sky is dark already.

As far as I can remember our favorite game is "patintero, 10-20, batuhan tao and bomb-sak". Everyday we can play different kind of games. when we got bored playing patintero we will play 10-20, but other boys can't play 10-20 so we will change the game. There are a lot of games that we could play in one day. in the morning we can play piko, text, pog, or tatching. As a kid we do not have the meaning of time. As long as it's not yet dark outside or your parents aren't calling you for dinner, It free to play more. But now I have no time to play anymore. I'm in a more serious world where you have to finish everything on exact time. I have more responsibilities now. And my responsibilities increases as I grow up. I cannot spend time outside after I finish a project because for sure there is another work waiting to be done. I am not a kid anymore. I am not that little kid that you can see on the street running and playing with her playmates. I am a college Student now playing with information and staying up late in the middle of the night to finish an activity or a project needed for my future.

How I wish I can go back to the time when I was young from time to time. How I wish I can still be friends with my childhood friends even though we're far away from each other now.

6 - Painting

I didn't know that I can do painting but I realize that painting is so much fun to do especially when some people appreciate my work. I am motivated to do better every time they tell me I'm doing good. And because of that I really want to paint all the time.

We are now painting a pop art on an 18"x24" canvas that we stretch last week.  I had so much fun stretching the canvas with Wynsley and Samantha. Though my right hand hurt because of the gun tucker I still enjoyed it. Now we are going to paint a pop art. Hopefully I finish it ahead of time. I am really excited about the result. My other block mates are already done with their painting and it looks good. 

As of now, I'm not yet starting with my painting because wasn't able to print my visual peg. I will start painting on Monday so I will finish it ahead of time. Though it is hard to paint on a bigger canvas, I know that I can do it I just need to focus and trust my talent.

5 - APC goes Broadway

I am really excited about the (APC)Asia Pacific College's upcoming concert, APC goes Broadway. I'm a part of APC chorale which is one the Performing Arts Groups. We will be performing on March 6, 2013 in the Auditorium. It will be an awesome concert because all of the Performing Arts Group are exerting so much effort preparing for the concert. I can't share much details about the concert because I don't want to spill it. It is my first time to be a member of a chorale group and I was given a chance to share my talent.

We are now busier in chorale. Before we do not have Wednesday rehearsals but because of the concert we have to practice three days a week.  We also have rehearsal on Monday even though we don't have classes we have to rehears to perfect our pitch, notes and blocking. The audience paid for a good concert so we have to satisfy them.