16. Dream Debut

I'm 17 and only few months left to my 18th. Most of our relatives are waiting for it because they are thinking that my dad loves me so much and for sure my debut will be an extraordinary. Well they are right. It will be extraordinary because I don't think my parents have plans for it. And when I ask about it they would give me  either a joke or avoid me.

For me debut is the most important birthday celebration that every girl here in the Philippines could ever experience. But it seems that it wasn't included to my parents plans. It's quite frustrating because since I was a little kid I've already thinking of what will happen to my birthday celebration. I have plans for it already like who will be my 18 roses, 18 candles, theme, design of my cake, every thing was set in my mind. The songs that will be used for 18 roses will be different dance craze, from "Pamela One" to the latest dance craze. I will be wearing the most beautiful gown for night. My childhood friends all are invited. It will be held in one awesome venue playing all of my favorite songs. But it seems to stay as a dream because there's no one planing for it except for myself. I don't think that my dream for my debut is possible. I have more important things to do and I'll just imagine that my friends' debut is also mine. It's not so nice to miss a once in a life time event in your life. It's like you were given 17 years to prepare for nothing. I know that I'm still blessed because I can still celebrate my every birthdays. But this is the most important one and nobody seems to have interest to talk about it.

I really wish that I can celebrate my debut even if it is simple. Like family members and closest friends only are invited. It'll be fine for me even if my birthday cake is just the small one. I don't care anymore If I cannot complete 18 roses and candles. The important thing is I will celebrate my birthday.